You just can pretend to be fine but the real is you are not. You just can prentend to laugh loudly ,scream loud as you can but the fact you are still crying. I have through it hurts. I find a new happiness ,hm don't know either get it or not. Yesss ,I have you in my life it makes me happy enough but understand me ,I need else. Tahu kann? K loveyou.